Memory Loss

Before you read this you might want to know that I edited it 4 times. Why? Because I wanted to add something I forgot to, fix something I remembered incorrectly, etc. GRRRRRR.

I remember when my kids were little, I prided myself on being such a good listener to everything they said. Always looking into their beautiful eyes with complete rapt attention, hanging on each and every syllable. Then later that day or that week or even that hour, they would tell me something they were doing and I would say "you didn't tell me that" and they would say "yes I did - remember?!" - uh no I don't. And then I would feel so bad because I really was listening as hard as I could - it just didn't penetrate this fossil of a brain I guess.

Well, it gets worse with age let me tell you. This morning I was walking into the office and thought to myself "hey yea my mantra - gotta do it". I'm strong, I'm beautiful, uhhhhhhhhhh, hmm. I'm strong, I'm beautiful, damn, uhhhhhhh. I'm strong, I'm beautiful - oh yea I'm smart!!!!! yay yaya! - hahahahaha. Stupid. Okay so then I'm thinking gosh I can't believe I forgot that - oh yea, need to read my new book, The Memory Cure - dang, forgot to bring it to work. Crap.

I called Dennis on my way in and said there are four things I need to do at lunch today and I reeled them right off. An hour later I'm on the phone with him - what were those things I said I needed to do today?

The worst is when my sister says "remember when we were little and blah blah blah?" and I always always always say NO! I do not remember that - yet she continues to do that to me - possibly just to rub in the fact that she can remember it and I don't. I choose to believe she's making it all up. :)

And the list just goes on and on and on - I don't understand what causes this and I don't like it. I don't like the way I can't forget some things I wish I could - can't remember some things I really really need to. Supposedly the more you do for yourself, your health, your brain - such as eating right, working on puzzles, reading, etc. - well just the more you do for your brain and body helps your memory. I do a lot for my body and my brain and I guess should just realize how bad it might be if I didn't? Yikes!